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02 May 2006 @ 09:45 pm
Ellipsis are our friends...[Closed]  
Character(s): Hitsu, Touga
Content: Hitsu decides to try and see if he can do anything to help Touga after what happened the night before. He wants to make a TV show called Dr. Hitsu. :D
Setting: Library
Time: Late night Hitsu's a vampire. Shhhh!
Warnings:Angsty crud, fluffiness, hints of sexual intercourse, etc.


In truth, after the night before Hitsu's mind was quite in a jumble. His common sense and emotions conflicting with each other to create a horrible feeling of butterflies performing a circus act on speed in his stomach. He had tried all day to avoid the situation but in the end he found himself right where it had all began.

Of course, if he was this bad as it was – there was no telling how Touga was feeling after the night’s events. Hitsu wondered vaguely if the elder man actually recollected what happened when he had changed into the small child version of himself. With any luck, the elder man’s episode may have been different from his own – and he might actually recollect things that had happened then.

Yet.. was it such a good thing to remember what happened..? In a sense, the younger one didn’t want Touga to remember anything. He had opened up a little too much. Showed too much emotions. Yet it wasn’t as if this time was any different.

He couldn’t hide the nervousness and conflict within him as he whispered the other’s name. “Touga..” his lips quivered slightly as the name passed through a second time. What the hell was he thinking, calling out for someone who probably wasn’t here..?

It wasn’t as though simply saying his name would conjure a spell to make him appear.


 
 
 
Hitsuabstractedmind on May 10th, 2006 04:58 am (UTC)
Nausea pitted itself within his stomach as he turned his head to gaze at the other’s glass smile. Deep inside him, he doubted the honesty of those words spoken. The way the other talked about it was eerie, as though he was seeing it through a tinted window. Gut instinct told him to push the subject yet he pushed such aside in respect for privacy.

“A dream? That's quite ironic, really. ” He turned his head back towards the paper, eyes staring at it for a moment before closing. “Mine was more like a nightmare. A broken record that wouldn’t stop playing in my head. To me, at first it seemed like a dream but I didn’t know the difference at the time because I was simply part of it myself.”
winter_rosebud on May 10th, 2006 05:10 am (UTC)
"A broken record that wouldn’t stop playing in my head."

Broken record...
a broken record...
playing over and over again
in a quiet room
Sitting in that same chair for hours, days on end
listening for...trying to find...something
he was missing in the music...


Touga jerked out of his memories with a start.
As he'd drifted away mentally, his grip on Hitsu had grown more loose. But his hands tightened on the other boy now, hearing what he'd said after the fact.

"Hitsu. Let's not go back there," Touga said, his voice hoarse and barely more than a whisper. His eyes were both sad and desperate, and looked suspiciously like they might be tearing up as he gazed down at the other boy.
Hitsuabstractedmind on May 10th, 2006 05:45 am (UTC)
Hitsu hadn't noticed the other's reaction at first, his own memories on the brink of reemerging at the edge of his mind at the thought. It all was a nightmare, one could call it but it was reality as well. For he once even had the scars to prove that fateful day of her death – the nails hammered into both his hands and arms. They felt like they had nailed themselves into his heart as well that day. At least, part of them wish they would have.

Touga’s voice shook of this memories but still brought a sense of cold as his eyes opened to once again peer at him. There were those emotions, coming back again – and his suspicions of earlier became more permanent due to these reactions.

His right hand moved, clasping over one of the other’s gently. The gesture may have been out of sympathy, or maybe it was due to the fact he, himself needed something to hold on to. He didn’t know as he shifted to hold the other’s arm. Not a word spoken but instead, he gave a simple nod.
winter_rosebud on May 10th, 2006 05:42 pm (UTC)
Feeling Hitsu reaching out to him--again--meant so much to Touga. And knowing the other boy better now, how rare this display was for him made it even more incredible.

He moved so that they were face to face and pulled the other boy close, holding him tight, almost tight enough to hurt.

Touga buried his face in Hitsu's shoulder for several moments, finally raising his head to whisper in the other boy's ear, "Hitsu, I..." Touga wasn't sure what he was trying to say. Just that there was something he had to tell the other boy. Something it almost hurt to keep inside. "I'm so glad you found me."

It was not a bad effort, considering, and merely expressed the sentiment in a different way. Admitting that he had been lost--to himself--was a big step for Touga.
Hitsuabstractedmind on May 10th, 2006 06:16 pm (UTC)
Hitsu couldn’t deny that the embrace felt nice nor could he deny a fear leaving him the moment he was held. His mind wouldn’t allow him to think of the right words for what he was fearing but it now felt as though some weight was lifted off him.

At the same time he found himself concerned about the other’s well being. Wondering what had happened to Touga that made him so distant at times, what made him cling to him like a lost child. Maybe he .. wanted to help him..?

As if he could help anyone, he hadn’t been able to even save himself.
But he had done something.. For it had been years since anyone was truly glad that he was around. He usually was a burden. And for Touga to say those words, sincerely, became a gift of it’s own. He smiled softly, returning the embrace with his own. “… I am.. too..”
winter_rosebud on May 10th, 2006 09:40 pm (UTC)
[ooc: You wanna just end it here with the unspoken love and we can start a new thread with them doing something else later, or...does Hitsu wanna give it up now? >D]
Hitsuabstractedmind on May 11th, 2006 01:02 am (UTC)
((OOC: Probably another thread or something. XD Hitsu's not quite ready to give it up now. Touga's charms still haven't gotten that far. ))